Hard to turn the page, when you’re stuck on the last one. The moment I left her behind was the moment my life stood still, or should I say the moment I moved forward. I should have stayed in the moment. They say, “the best way to know what you have is not to have it anymore.” I say, “the best way to know what you have is to enjoy having it”. I listened to my stubborn mind instead of my understanding my heart. Now, I dwell in the loss of her gain. She always fought for us, but I was busy fighting for me, trying to understand what was no longer. “I am a husband,” which means I am no longer single. Self isn’t a priority when you’ve committed to taking care of another. I was so afraid of the emotions I felt for her, that I felt no emotions at all. I listened to the advice of maintaining a sense of self, when the only self that made sense was when I was with her. I can say, “There are more fish in the sea,” but I caught an endangered species and it was the last one left. “If it was meant to be it will come back,” more like, “It was meant to be and I turned my back.” I can’t blame God nor the Devil because I was granted “choice” and used it to give up on what was chosen. Didn’t know I was crawling and learning to walk. Didn’t know I was just living and she was showing life. “A person shouldn’t have to go through this,” here I am feeling sorry for myself. A person should have to go through this! They need a daily reminder of the pain of selfishness. They need to understand that happiness isn’t about searching for more, but realizing you have it all!!!!
Aziz Brown Hello, I am Aziz Brown, a Spanish Harlem NYC native that loves love and use it to inspire others to love. I am a grandson, son, nephew, brother, cousin, uncle, god father, best friend, friend, and first of all a human being. I'm an optimistic Idealist that believes if you don't like your reality, change it; but if you don't have the energy to make the change, make the best of it. I am open to hear your every thought; I am just not going to listen to every thought. I am a blunt, morally driven, outspoken, loving honest man that will not settle for liking someone, when I can grow to love them. I am a faithful believer in faith and believing. I never wish or hope when I can act on making it a reality. I enjoy romance but I am more intrigued by the honesty of a relationship than the complacency of just trying to relate. I enjoy the meeting of the minds but love meetings of hearts. Tough love is my gift to the world; loving tough is my reward from God. Education is something I give as well as receive. I am AmazinglyBrash; my intention is to allow you to get to truly know me!!!!